I Want to Say

I want to say
    I never said
    there is no God,
And maybe not.
     But a time or two
     when left alone
I said the unimaginable
     declared Him uncaring
     and cursed His name.

I want to say
     I've not seen
     an ego driven fool.
Maybe not, but
      now and again
      there is reflected
In the mirror
      the real me and
      a willful heart.

I want to say
     God looks down,
     sees a wise soul.
And maybe so,
     just not now,
     but sometimes,
When living says
      my only hope,
      seeking His face.

  (Psalm 53)