Spiritual Uneasiness

From time to time, a sense of spiritual uneasiness settles down upon us.  It does not necessarily come because we have stepped out of our walk with Jesus, nor does it necessarily point to some major moment of disobedience in our life.   It may also be a way that God has of telling us we need to pay attention.  Like Jonah, we may be hearing some Word from God we do not want to hear.  There may be in us some hesitation about taking a step into the future that we, in the deep places of our heart, know He is unfolding before us.  

Remember Ananias?  He certainly had his moment of uneasiness when He heard the Lord telling him to go look for Saul of Tarsus who had come to Damascus to possibly take him and other believers like him bound in chains back to Jerusalem.  This is evident as we hear him saying into today's English, "Lord, do you know what You are talking about?"  What he knew he heard, he did not want to do and when such a moment comes to us, it is likely that we will experience spiritual uneasiness until the issue is settled with God.  The One who called us into bring does not always lead us toward what we want to do, but toward what He wants us to do.  

Let there be no question here.  What we want and what God wants are often two very different things.  When we signed on as a disciple in the beginning, we signed on for a journey to wherever and whatever.  In our act of saying "Yes" to Jesus in the quiet place of our heart as well as in the act of baptism, we declared,  "Not my will, but Yours be done."  When that spiritual uneasiness settles down on our soul, it may be a sign that we have paused in front of a moment when our abandonment to Christ is not being tested, but measured.